Fent Freddy wasn’t always a ghost in the alleys of Seattle. Once, he had a name that didn’t make people step back when they heard it. Frederick Jameson. A father. A husband. A carpenter who built homes for others before he lost his own.

Now, he lived in the shadows of Pike Place Market, beneath the viaduct, in doorways and under blue tarps. The city moved around him, pretending not to see.

“Freddy! You good, man?” Rico, a younger guy with track marks up his arms, slapped him on the shoulder as he passed. Freddy grunted. He wasn’t good. Not in a long time.

He leaned against the wall outside a shuttered bakery, shivering as the February rain soaked through his tattered coat. His fingers were numb, his stomach a hollow pit. He had spent his last five bucks on a little blue pill that he let dissolve under his tongue an hour ago. Now, everything felt slow, heavy, like he was sinking into the sidewalk.

Freddy had been chasing that feeling for years. Ever since the pain in his chest—both real and the kind that couldn't be seen—became too much to bear.

He used to promise himself he’d stop. That he’d get clean. That he’d call his daughter, Samantha. But promises were like smoke in the wind.

Tonight, though, something felt different.

As Freddy dozed against the wall, half-conscious, he felt something hard tap his boot. He forced his eyes open to see a girl standing in front of him. Maybe 12, maybe 15—it was hard to tell. She had a dirty hoodie, ripped jeans, and eyes too old for her face.

“You got any?” she asked, voice barely above the rain.

Freddy blinked. “Got any what?”

“You know what,” she said, looking around. “I got twenty bucks.”

Freddy’s stomach twisted. He recognized that hunger in her eyes. The kind that swallowed people whole.

“Nah,” he mumbled, shaking his head. “Ain’t got nothing.”

The girl chewed her lip, glancing down the street where a group of men loitered near a tent, watching her. Freddy knew them. Knew what they sold.

She’d get what she wanted, one way or another.

Something inside him snapped.

“Hey,” he rasped. “What’s your name?”

She looked at him like he was crazy. “Why do you care?”

“Because,” Freddy said, pushing himself up with shaking arms. “I had a daughter once.”

The girl hesitated. Then, barely above the wind, she muttered, “Mia.”

Freddy nodded. “Mia, don’t go to them.”

She scoffed. “You ain’t my dad.”

“No,” Freddy admitted. “But I know how this ends.”

Mia glared at him for a long moment. Then she turned and disappeared into the night.

Freddy sagged against the wall, his breath coming in ragged bursts. His chest felt tight. Maybe it was the cold. Maybe it was something else.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out an old flip phone—one he kept charged for one reason only.

His fingers shook as he dialed.

“Hello?” A voice, cautious, older than he remembered.

Freddy swallowed the lump in his throat. “Samantha?”

Silence.

“…Dad?”

Tears mixed with the rain on Freddy’s face. “Yeah, baby. It’s me.”

For the first time in years, he felt something real.

Hope.
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